> Shrouded in darkness;

~~Wednesday, May 11, 2011~~

2:50 AM

Last night i heard my own heard beat beating

Sounds like foot step on my stair

6 months gone

I am still reaching

Even i know that you're not even there

Every time u stare

I will never anxious

I have been playing back memories

Thinking about everything we have been through
Maybe I have been going back lately

When the time stood still and i had u

Come back to me if this was a movie

Stand outside the rain till i came out

Come back to me if you just say a sorry

I know we can work it out somehow

But if this is a movie u will be here by now...

Its getting dark and

its too quiet

i can trust anywhere right now

and its coming over you like its a big mistake

Holding my breath won't lose you again

Something makes my eye so cold

Come on, dont leave me like this

I though i had you

Figure out,

Something gones,

Terrible wrong

You are all i wanted ...

Cant breathe whenever you are gone

Cant turn back

Now I am haunted !

Will you ever notice me...

2:41 AM

I still remember the look on your face
Lit through the darkness at 1:58
The words that you whispered
For just us to know
You told me you loved me
So why did you go

Away

Away?

I do recall now
The smell of the rain
Fresh on the pavement
I ran off the plane

That July 9th
The beat of your heart
It jumps through your shirt
I can still feel your arms

But now I'll go sit on the floor
Wearing your clothes
All that I know is that
I don't know how to be something you miss

Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips

I do remember
The swing in your step
The life of the party, you're showing off again
And I roll my eyes and then
You pull me in
I'm not much for dancing
But for you I did

Because I love your handshake
Me and my father

I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets

How you kissed me when I was in the middle of saying something
There's not a day when I don't miss those rude interruptions

But now I'll go sit on the floor
Wearing your clothes
All that I know is that
I don't know how to be something you miss
Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips

So I'll watch you live in pictures like I used to watch you sleep
And I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe
And I keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are
Hope it's nice where you are

And I hope the sun shines
And it's a beautiful day
And something reminds you
You wish you had stayed
You can plan for a change in weather and town
But I never planned on you changing your mind

So I'll go sit on the floor
Wearing your clothes
All that I know is that
I don't know how to be something you miss

Never thought we'd have a last kiss

Never imagined we'd end like this

Will you ever notice me...

~~Wednesday, November 3, 2010~~

8:53 PM

Is there anyone to heal my wound?
If i leave it alone, it's going to continually get worse
I'm really scared of love and people
I'm afraid of being alone, i'm afraid of being forgotten

Always a loner, I close the door to my heart
bearing my sadness on my back, I live like a fool
I close my eyes and cover my ears
I lock myself in the gloomy darkness

365 days, all year long, I wander
Jack Sparrow holds the rudder, chasing my spirit
The raging hurricane, tightening my belt
A rapper who forfeited his orientation and lost his way
I fight again with the other me who's hiding inside me

When he left, he told me
“Even when you're next to me, it's like you're not there"
A blade-like love that brushes off when you touch it
It was a cold love where my heart froze over

Yeah, living for one minute, one second is not living
Everyday, I fear every day
m'aidez! Someone, pull me out

Always a loner, I close the door to my heart
bearing my sadness on my back, I live like a fool
I close my eyes and cover my ears
I lock myself in the gloomy darkness

When I faced our farewell that came without warning,
afraid that i'd be alone again, I ignored it
The past times that I yearn for even in my dreams
Hoping for those times to return to me, with an earnest heart
I prayed every night

The arrow of memories that pulled the bowstring and left my hand
it flies endlessly towards the far target
I'm asking you to come back to me, to hold onto my hand
No matter how many times I call you, though I endlessly shout for you
there's no response from you

In my memories, no matter how much I struggle to erase your existence
Every night, in my dreams,
She appears, wiping away my falling tears
What should I do? Say that everything is ok?
Lie to myself? I can't take this anymore!

When it hurts, I hurt too. When it's sad, I'm sad too
My frozen heart keeps accusing me
Really, it's the end. Really, I'm okay.
The tears that I've held in keeps pouring down on me

Is there anyone to heal my wound?
If i leave it alone, it's going to continually get worse
I'm really scared of love and people
I'm afraid of being alone, i'm afraid of being forgotten

Always a loner, I close the door to my heart
bearing my sadness on my back, I live like a fool
I close my eyes and cover my ears
I lock myself in the gloomy darkness

Will you ever notice me...

8:53 PM

Will you ever notice me...

8:50 PM

Passion of life, such thing as hope, it doesn't exist
I'm breathing simply out of life
My body feels ok, it's nothing special
And yet I feel like I'm drowning
World suffocates me endlessly
My heart closed only halfway
I put a lock on that door
Locks rusted away from an ethereal loneliness
I turn my key out
Alienation from answers, held on my shackles
It suffocates me
Picking up the phone that never rings
I wait for your call all night
I need your interest, I need your conversation
I need your hand, I need even small love
Please light the fuse that's fading away...

I can't blend in here, there, anywhere
I can't belong to you, her, anyone else
I walk down restlessly around you
Will the moon understand my loneliness?
Wonder if the stars understand my scars
Buried in affliction, I sing this song
Graved in loneliness, I call out your name

I walk down restlessly around you
I walk around because I fear of change
Broken from the love of chains, I sing to find the one
Following the wind and the cloud, I wander the world
Where did you go, leaving me here, I do not know
You left me over there to the place no one knows
I wanna leave this behind
Thirst for love, I'm always in hunger
I even miss the tip of your fingers
Undermined our interest, love seems like a luxury
Sometimes the thing that always follows me
When my shadow is covered by the moon, I draw you in my heart
I recite on myself
Every day, I am fear of life endlessly
Wanna see you, touch you, feel you
I can only say those words, I bite on my pitifulness

Will you ever notice me...

~~Monday, August 16, 2010~~

3:26 AM

Somewhere, a voice calls, in the depths of my heart
May I always be dreaming, the dreams that move my heart
So many tears of sadness, uncountable through and through
I know on the other side of them I'll find you
Everytime we fall down to the ground we look up to the blue sky above
We wake to it's blueness, as for the first time
Though the road is long and lonely and the end far away, out of sight
I can with these two arms embrace the light
As I bid farewell my heart stops, in tenderness I feel
My silent empty body begins to listen to what is real
The wonder of living, the wonder of dying
The wind, town, and flowers, we all dance one unity
Somewhere a voice calls in the depths of my heart
keep dreaming your dreams, don't ever let them part 
 Why speak of all your sadness or of life's painfull woes
Instead let the same lips sing a gentle song for you
The whispering voice, we never want to forget,
in each passing memory always there to guide you
When a miror has been broken, shattered pieces scattered on the ground
Glimpses of new life, reflected all around
Window of beginning, stillness, new light of the dawn
Let my silent, empty body be filled and reborn
No need to search outside, nor sail across the sea
Cause here shining inside me, it's right here inside me
I've found a brightness, it's always with

Will you ever notice me...

~~Tuesday, July 20, 2010~~

2:55 AM

I'm givin' up, on everything
Because you messed me up
Don't know how much you
Screwed it up
You never listened
That's just too bad
Because I'm moving on
I won't forget
You were the one that was wrong
I know I need to step up and be strong
Don't patronize me

Gotta get away
There's no point in thinking about yesterday
It's too late now
It will never be the same
We're so different now

I know I wanna run away

If only I could run away

I told you what I wanted

What I wanted
But I was forgotten
I won't be forgotten
Never again!!!

Got up on the wrong side of life today, yeah
Crash the car and I'm gonna be really late
My phone doesn't work cus it's out of range
Looks like it's just one of those kind of days

You can't kick me down I'm already on the ground
No you can't, but you couldn't catch me anyhow
Blue skies, but the sun isn't coming out, no
Today is like I'm under a heavy cloud

And I feel so alive
I can't help myself
Don't you realize

I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and run away, yeah
I just wanna fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and run away, yeah

So-so's how I'm doing, if you're wondering
I'm in a fight with the world but I'm winning
Stay there, come closer it's at your own risk
Yeah you know how it is life can be a bitch

And I feel so alive
I can't help myself
Don't you realize ?

Will you ever notice me...

2:31 AM

As the rain falls and all she can think about is him,
She wonders why she's still there careing and loveing him
She can't help to feel but trapped
hopeing one day to be free
Free from all the drama and all the misery! !

As the rain fall and tears run down her cheeks,
She can't help but wonder is he in love with me?
Is it meant to be?
Is he the one for me?
Should i hold on or should i let it be?

As the rain falls, and she whips away her tears
She sees him in the distance telling her to come here
She goes not knowing what to expect and hopeing for the best
clinging to her thoughts cuz thats all she has left

As the rain falls, a sunny day appears
letting her know that hope is very near
She meets up with him, her one true love
Loveing and careing, the one from up above

He holds her letting her know he's there
keeping her from harms way, keeping her from everything, and all those stupid games
He whispers 'I love you'
and she lookd into his eyes
She knows its true and not some sorry lies

As the rain clears up and all she sees is him
She knows it was meant to be cuz he's what makes her free! ! !

Will you ever notice me...

2:20 AM

Some deny and search for things that never come around

Do I feel like a fool?

The places I have ran to all my life have disappeared

And I owe this all to you

I'm feeling like I'm sinking

And nothing's there to catch me, keep me breathing

What do I have to do?

Why can't this hurt be through?

I'm going head unto

Something I know I will fail

Why can't this kiss be true

Why won't you please let me through?

I don't understand why you always push me away

The last thing I would like to do before I go away

is cry there next to you (next to you)

Cry and talk about the good old days and where they've gone

And now how much I hate you

What do I have to do?

Why can't this hurt be through?

I'm going head unto

Something I know I will fail

Why can't this kiss be true

Why won't you please let me through?

I don't understand why you always push me away

I feel the blood drip off my body as it falls right there

on the ground

What am I now?

What do I have to do?

Why can't this hurt be through?

I'm going head unto

Something I know I will fail

Why can't this kiss be true

Why won't you please let me through?

I don't understand why you always push me away

Will you ever notice me...

2:14 AM

There’s a chill in the evening air
Carries me back to some place where
I thought I’d lost my way forever
Every dream and every plan
Every last chance slipped through my hand
And you smiled at me and it was over
Holding you tonight
Hold on tight
I try to say it right
And I guess sometimes the words don’t come
And I wish I told you how you changed my life
And saved me with your love
I hope when all is said and done
You know I owe you one
Walk me down those streets again
Stop me right at the moment when
You stood there talking to a stranger
Tell me how you looked at me
And knew the very best that I could be
How did you see this happy ending
Standing by your side
I’m still surprised
I try to say it right
But I guess sometimes the words don’t come
And I wish I’d told you how you changed my life
And saved me with your love
I hope when all is said and done
You know I owe you one
One for life and one for love
And all you’ve given me
For the dreams you made me dream again
And all that we can be missed

Will you ever notice me...

~~Saturday, June 12, 2010~~

7:55 PM

Clip act in my heart

Including you

You have been the highest , reason its between us

Nothing gonna stop me

Unless you slow down

You`ll never drop down

Never fall

I just wanna tell you

You`re the sweetest

Take my hand,

Dream a night

kiss in the wall might be nightmare

What is my clip act in you ?

Will you ever notice me...

~~Friday, June 11, 2010~~

2:12 AM

I have done this its not just i wanna show my feeling right now

I wanna tell u that I love you

everything i did its between you and i

Cause i don`t wanna hurt you

Please my step for is getting cold

your leg between , there`s stand

my words to you is only left this ...
sorry too

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, June 10, 2010~~

9:20 PM

Your eyes are like a ocean,
Your hair is the waves that lift the ocean,
Your heart is the core of the animal ocean that feels it up with love for the lovely ocean
Your ful of emotion for your own ocean
Your smile just lights the ocean
By the night it calm and quite even the oceans getting so bright by the day and soul is quite
You will be mine tonight
Me and you can sit by the ocean and you are so close to a ocean as I can get and I love you just like a ocean me and you toghether and the ocean's flour will be your blanket for you.

Will you ever notice me...

~~Wednesday, June 9, 2010~~

9:47 PM

I'm tired of seeing sad people frown,

I'm tired of people who puts themselves down,

I'm tired of people who lets themselves drown,

I'm tired of those who creates deafening sound,

I'm tired of saying 'I cant let you down',

I tired of thinking that you are always down,

I'm tired of these and just want to drown,

I'm tired of all these unhappy sound,

I tried everything just to understand,

Why of all places this is where i'm destined to stand?

of all places this is where my poem needs to stand,

I pity everything but not wanting to drown.

can feel it coming and I'm telling you my friend, that the lives

we are wasting effect the whole in the end. The apathetic lives we

lead, they're so easy to be seen. I know the time is coming for

intense suffering. Begin to care. I know it's taken me a while.

Now I see it's time for this generation to at least try, to wake to

the reality of our constant negativity. Redevelop the goals so as

to benefit the whole. Begin to care. The blatant disregard is

simply confining the arms, that are struggling to keep us up.

The lifeline is slowly being cut. And I just begin to care

The pain is all inside my eye

I hear the sirens but they pass me by.

My hazard lights are flashing, somebody, anyone

And I`ll never leave with regret

The world is locked outside my head

And I refuse to let it in...

I don't find peace in the things I've done

Or the places that I've been

I feel the sides of a velvet trap

That holds me tight at bay

I want to sail and think blue sky

But my life has blocked the way

I wanted so to do great things

To leave them all in awe

But instead I blundered into things

That I never even saw

Now every man has got his cross

Yes, the one that he must bear

And no life, I know, can be complete

Without the need to care

A need to care

But a coldness falls around my soul

Like a curtain on a stage

And thoughts that should be gentle ones

Come on like burning rage

In a crowded room I'm all alone

I don't care what's being said

In spite of all that's going on

Creative thought is dead

If all I hate is removed today

What I want is not what's left

Because the dragons aren't really real, you know

They're all within your self

Now every man has got his cross

Yes, the one that he must bear

And no life I know can be complete

Without the need to care

A need to care from you

I care for u

L0veTakes2

Will you ever notice me...

~~Saturday, April 24, 2010~~

8:22 PM

I can figure this out
You experienced smile
You have award the quality of smile.
Smile comfort the heart beat
You`ll touch the spirit of the world someday
Or it does n`t have anymore deal.

I guess, you experienced cry.
You make feel with the taste of tears
When it melt and aware the smell of tears
Your sound will mess up.
Emotion your world,
It just like a dog`s or a cat`s excrement
( scream i know it, say i hate it, i hate it. Don`t`ya ? )
Consume your heart with a second, a minute
You`re hiding a piece of an emotional tears.

Promise its just a situation involving deception,
Beautiful its tricky,
Influence to give up everything
Honestly
We both understand it clearly.
Undertakes,
That`s a only empty while paper.
However,
How long is your story go on,
I`ll still could n`t find a word of ending.
SO maybe its true,
Fart its the best situation of letting out of tears.

We were always lightning up to be a fool,
Could n`t conceal of sadness
That`s why when you feeling empty it have a word
" Cheer up "
And might smile brightly as smile could bring you on
Just keep your tears off
[ recycling unavailable ]

Will you ever notice me...

7:36 PM

Dead star shine
Light up the sky
I'm all out of breath
Days go by
Give me a sign
Come back to the end
The shepherd of the damned

I can feel you falling away

No longer the lost
No longer the same
And I can see you starting to break
I'll keep you alive
If you show me the way
Forever and ever
The scars will remain
I'm falling apart
Leave me here forever in the dark

Daylight dies
Blackout the sky
Does anyone care?
In anybody there?
Take this life
Empty inside
I'm already dead
I'll rise to fall again

I can feel you falling away

If you show me the way
Forever and ever
The star will remain
I'm falling apart
Leave me here forever in the dark

God help me I've come undone
Out of the light of the sun
God help me I've come undone
Out of the light of the sun

I can feel you falling away

Give me a sign
There's something buried in the words
Give me a sign
Your tears are adding to the flood
Just give me a sign
There's something buried in the words
Give me a sign
Your tears are adding to the flood
Just give me a sign
There's something buried in the words
Give me a sign
Your tears are adding to the flood

Forever - and ever
The stars will remain

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, April 1, 2010~~

10:27 PM

Thanks for everything you taught me
Thanks for speaking my mind freely
Thanks for listening to what I've to say
Thanks for getting me through another day
Thanks for supporting me
Thanks for loving me
Thanks for lending me a hand
Thanks for being my friend
Thanks for your honesty
Thanks for letting me show the deepest part of me
Thanks for letting me know you will be there
Thanks for letting me know that you care
Thanks for the time we've spent
Thanks for the things you've said
Thanks for believing in me
Thanks for the cups of tea
Thanks for your patience
Thanks for our phone-conversations
Thanks for the music in my heart
Thanks for giving me a fresh start
Thanks for seeing me through
Thanks for saying I love you
Thanks for learning my boy to drink from a straw
Thanks for putting my feet back on the floor
Thanks for the necklace you gave to me, it means a lot to me
Thanks for the secrets you save for me
Thanks for your advice
Thanks for melting my ice
Thanks for letting me go
Thanks for letting me flow
Thanks for learning me to relax
Thanks for having great sex
Thanks for crying in your arms
Thanks for giving me shelter in your warmth
Thanks for the places we've been
Thanks for the things we've seen
Thanks for giving me inspiration
Thanks for your dissuasion
Thanks for your shoulder to lean on
Thanks for bringing me "home"
Thanks for your clarity
Thanks for your objectivity
Thanks for some of my dreams
Thanks for some of my fantasies
Thanks for your hugs and kisses
Thanks for opening on to some of my wishes
Thanks for sharing my thought with you
Thanks for the things we do
Thanks for reading my minds eye
Thanks for not telling me a lie
Thanks for understanding me
Thanks for not hurting me
Thanks for the butterfly's
Thanks for making me high
Thanks for the memories we have
Thanks for the laughs
Thanks for crossing my path
Thanks for your love
Thanks for whatever the future brings
Thanks for not putting me on strings
Thanks for making me bloom
Thanks for getting me over the moon
Thanks for letting me into your life
Thanks for not taking the dive
Thanks for being a light
Thanks for anything I forgot to write
Thanks for your trust
Thank you so much

Will you ever notice me...

10:27 PM

Will you ever notice me...

10:23 PM

Into the abyss, perpetual and torturous
The gallery of suicide, internal torment
Archaic carcasses, displayed degeneracy
Once within these walls a life of death will be unleashed
Forever dying are the dead, countless bleeding heads
Cadavers splattered red from the self-slicing of necks
Stenching maggot filled bodies, skulls and bones rot away
The slaughtered souls that chose to die, enveloped in death
Darkness is the only light, suicide the way
Hideous forms of human death, mounds of flesh slowly decay
Embrace the horrid nature, carnage on display
Pain never felt
Enslaved inside the massive grave
Life, evil fate
Only slaves to death can survive this place
Die, perdition
Penance in putrid decadence
Dead miscreants
Enter the decrepit necropolis
Lurid interment in the hellish abattoir
Impetuosity and horror, after-life is tortured
Entrails, guts, and blood is this museums decor
Blood, impiety
Chastened are the sanguinary
Purge, radical
They perish, the victims of vagary
Vile tragedy
With great vehemence the hapless dies
Kill, suicide
Serrated blades assist in destiny
Death opened the gallery
Sarcophagus
Ecstasy in suffering
Imprecation
Blood, impiety
Chastened are the sanguinary
Purge, radical
They perish, the victims of vagary

Will you ever notice me...

7:46 PM

The suicide note

the suicide note,

is hardest to write,

because you have to,

say goodbye,

Now this girl was stressed,

with bullies and boyfriends,

she hates to burn,

but her life was a thread,

now it's time to snip it,

here and now,

she wrote the note,

she didn't know how,

it said:

To my mother,

I love you so much,

To my father,

you too,

To all the haters,

Keep on hating me,

To my boyfriend,

Laters,

and this is a silent cry,

of a mistaken,

suicide butterfly,

will she see you in hell?

because her final trip out,

is leave the station...

she wants to give you a final good-bye...

Is suicide really suicide or death with a cause

I mean were not breaking any laws

You hate us because we’re different and we dress in black

Because we’re filled with emotion but in conversation we lack

These scar’s we make heal our pain

And stop us going insane

Better to make our blood drip then to spill the lot

Dying happy is fine but living depressed is not

But in the end the choice is yours

Is suicide really suicide or death with a cause

Barely understand

What seems so real

Sometimes I hurt myself

So I can't really feel

You want me with your tortured eyes

I want you with my mind

Here we are short of paradise

A drop of blood frozen in time

Save me, better save yourself

Your love is emotional suicide

Save me, better save yourself

Your love is emotional suicide

Now I stand alone in the heat of the night

Throwing stones at walls made of glass and red wine

I watch you sleep with an angel's kiss

I watch you wake cold with sweat

With my lips I slit your wrists

With your touch shake me dead

You love me with a pack of lies

I love you with my soul

Here we go on a lightning ride

I must admit

It's gettin' old

Save me better save yourself

Your love is emotional suicide

Will you ever notice me...

~~Tuesday, March 30, 2010~~

8:35 PM

Once again left the rider
With no clue where to do
Helpless and frustrated
He began to wander in woe

He wandered here and where
Without a place to go
Nights fell and days damned
Onwards he just rode
The trees dropped their leaves
Soon the first snow would fall
A lonely rider was sleeping
Beside the ancient stonewall

"Behing the wall is a realm no man dares to go
There thou find the answers... or not...
Wise and old is the keeper of the stone
The stone sees days - passed and to come"

The rider heard the voice
Whispering these words
Where it came or who it was
A delusion he had heard?
Snowflakes drew a picture
Right on his eyes
A line of hills behind forest
Where dusk colours the sky

"Behing the wall is a realm no man dares to go
There thou find the answers... or not...
Wise and old is the keeper of the stone
The stone sees days - passed and to come"

When the sun appeared over the woods on the horizon
The rider sat thinking was it a dream or real
In a moment he mounted the horse, began to search
For a gate to enter the unknown realm

Will you ever notice me...

8:32 PM

I’ve been burning my bridges
For too many years,
Drowning the sorrow
Of too many tears
Women and whiskey
Are my only friends,
One gives me strength,
One just pretends

I’ve been waiting my whole life
For things to work out right,
But, those lonely days turn into lonely nights
Yes, it do

I’ve heard all the wisdom
Of prophets and seers,
It don’t soothe my passion
And it don’t ease my fears
Burned by love
And blinded by snow,
Bad luck and trouble
Are with me wherever I go

I’ve been waiting my whole life
For things to work out right,
But those lonely days turn into lonely nights
Lonely days, lonely nights,
Lonely days, lonely nights

Lonely days, lonely nights,
Someday babe, it’s gonna be alright
Lonely days, lonely nights,
Someday babe, it’s gonna be alright for me, for me

Lonely days, lonely nights,
Someday babe, it’s gonna be alright...

Will you ever notice me...

~~Wednesday, March 24, 2010~~

8:54 PM

Will you ever notice me...

~~Tuesday, March 23, 2010~~

8:27 PM

An ocean of devotion,
A tizzy of dizzy
A potion of lotion
In a sea of ecstasy

A Chasm of orgasm
A surfeit of stimulation
A quiver of shivers
An ovation of titillation

A night of delight
A clutch of a touch
A wonderful sight
A touch too much

A piece of striptease
An asp full of hiss
A squeeze of knees
An abyss of bliss,

A feeling of reeling
A measure of treasure
A pealing of feeling
A treasure of pleasure

A collection of affection
A crest of a breast
A perfection of direction
A quest of the best

a rain of pain
A ringlet of regrets
A refrain in the brain
A collage of coquettes

A bind in the mind
A clasp of a grasp
A slip of a lip
A growl of a gasp

A pleasing of teasing
An illusion of alarm
A cart load of heart
A strong arm of charm

Will you ever notice me...

8:12 PM

Find your faith in your security
All broken up at seventeen
Jam your brain with broken heroes
Love your masks and adore your failure

We’re a mess of eyeliner and spraypaint
D.i.y. destruction on chanel chic
Deny your culture of consumption
This is a culture of destruction

Don’t wanna see your face
Don’t wannt hear your words
Why don’t you just

Babes on the run with poisoned lips
Wrap your arms round this everlasting kiss
Clinging to your own sense of waste
All we love is lonely wreckage

Your school your dole and your chequebook dreams
Your clothes your suits and your pension schemes
Now you say you know how we feel
But don’t fall in love cos we hate you still

Don’t wanna see your face
Don’t wannt hear your words
Why don’t you just

Destroyed by madness
Destroyed by madness
Destroyed by madness
Destroyed by madness
Anxiety is freedom

Will you ever notice me...

8:11 PM

Natural voices into quietude,

The busses rushing home into crepuscule,

The bullies waiting for me with dumb bats,

And vampires floating like kindergarteners f*cking

In the air:

Kids get drunk to look like they’re in charge,

Lions yawn and then fornicate inside the electric fence.

I suppose that once Sharon thought to love me,

While she was coming up for air,

But when she finally tasted the rind of this green

Amusement,

Maybe she had another taste in her mouth,

Like another man’s child in her womb.

Controlled by giant robots disturbed out of sleep

And busting up the sky,

We let the comets in through the sun-lights in the Florida

Room to floating like presumptuous butterflies around

The plastic fire-trucks:

I told Erin I was celibate this entire time,

While Tesla operated on his sweet experiments above tree

Line;

But I am not anymore, and her eyes won’t look at me

Through the keyholes of little bears,

And Tesla has found away to conduct electricity through the

Tuffs of snow.

And Mickey Mouse is a dear old gentleman we all congratulated

Once he decided to self publish.

Will you ever notice me...