> Shrouded in darkness;

~~Saturday, November 28, 2009~~

6:26 PM

You promised you’d always trust in me,

I believed that'd always be true.

But behind that face of veracity,

You hid a different you.

Your eyes fill deep with confusion.

Your tongue breathes nothing but lies.

Your lips speak words of nothingness,

When you stare into my eyes.

Single drops of heartbreak fall,

As my fears escape your lips.

Dreams fall without warning,

And it’s just too late to fix.

Truth lies hiding behind our Doors,

Veiled over by your existence.

I try breaking this sturdy door,

But am barred by another resistance.

You promised you’d always trust in me,

And I believe that'd always be true,

So you now deserve to see my broken dreams,

Cracked, on the floors, around you.

Will you ever notice me...

6:25 PM

I miss a love I never new I had

Until it was gone

I took for granted something so special

Thinking it was always going to be there

When one day it up and left

Without even saying goodbye

If I could

I wouldn’t wish to bring that love back to me

Because it obviously wasn’t meant to be

Instead,

I would wish to go back

And love more sincerely and,

Take nothing for granted

Because that love was special

And so was the person I was in love with….

Will you ever notice me...

~~Friday, November 27, 2009~~

6:37 PM

See ya blowin’ me a kiss
It doesn’t take a scientist
To understand what’s going on baby
If you see something in my eye
Let’s not over analyze
Don’t go too deep with it baby
So let it be what it’ll be
Don’t make a fuss and get crazy over you and me
Here’s what I do, I play it loose
Not like we have a date with destiny

It’s just a little crush
Not like I faint everytime we touch
It’s just some little thing
Not like everything I do depends on you

It’s raising my adrenaline
You’re bangin’ on a heart of tin
Please don’t make too much of it baby
Say the word forevermore
That’s not what I’m looking for
All I can commit to is maybe
So let it be what it’ll be
Don’t make a fuss and get crazy over you and me
Here’s what I do, I play it loose
Not like we have a date with destiny

Vanilla skies, white picket fences in your eyes
A vision of you and me

Will you ever notice me...

~~Wednesday, November 18, 2009~~

2:11 AM

You know sometimes you fall in love with someone who you really don’t know. That person seems nice, but it might be for show. You love them with all your heart and yet your heart hurts so bad. Sometimes you are smiling and happy. Other times you are sad. Let me tell you what I mean, so you can feel me.

Your smile brightens my day,

And your words lift my heart.

But at the same time I want to

Make a new start.

At times you make me feel

like,

Loving you is a good thing.

But also at times you make

me think you only think of

me as a fling.

Kissing my body with your

soft lips,

But you also scare me with

the touch of your finger tips.

Why do you make loving you

so hard?

Saying sweet things, but at the

same time playing me like a deck

of cards.

Your eye say, well I think they

say you love me,

But then I think that’s not

what you see.

Well I’m tired of being hurt

by this thing called love.

So all I can do is pray to

the Lord above.

So please dear Lord I

don’t want to hurt anymore.

So give me that special someone

to knock on my hearts door.

Will you ever notice me...

~~Monday, November 16, 2009~~

9:50 PM

my angel of the night
being feed a web of lies
i will not watch from above way up in the skies
glutted, deception
caused you so much pain
I will relinquish those thoughts
that is my only aim
i'll stop whatever’s making you grieve
this is not some story
even if it means going through the seven stages of hell
purgatory!
swooping down from the heavens
mouthed opened in dismay
you will see none other than your angel of the day
i am your gladiator
willing to fight
ready to defend my angel of the night
you don't have to be scared
cause i'll be there
and you can lean on my shoulder
you are the chest
i am the key
what’s really on your mind
you can open up and tell me
you don't have to act tough
you can can scream you can shout
let your true inner feelings out
i'm a good listener
you dont have to hide
i'll stay rigth by your side
i'm here for you
i'll be your knight in shining armor
stay behind me, dont be somber
my shield like a impenetrable iron door
you can count on me
your..........
Protector

Will you ever notice me...

9:41 PM

'Truth...I really want to know the truth of exactly how you feel. I want to know if it's a game or if our love is real. I wish I could tell you that I think our love is right, but I know I can't do that because I feel your with someone else tonight.'

What is TRUTH? ! ...Is it a feeling? , a thought? , a belief? Does the truth really set us free or does it leave us wishing we hadn't found out the TRUTH nor told it in the first place? Would one rather hear the truth than believe a lie or believe a lie and NOT want to hear the truth?

Do we let this 'truth' determine what the next step will be? If we hear the truth about the question we ask or the thought we have or what we feel, do we accept it as the truth or do we keep digging for more because we're not satisfied with the truth that's been given?

Tell me the truth? ...would it really matter in the end? IF it does / should...who would it affect? The person wanting the truth or the person giving the truth? Both?

The truth is...we all have OUR own truths. What someone tells us wouldn't matter because it would all fall on us...whether we want to believe what they tell us to be the truth or not. The truth is there is no real truth but your own. Am I right? ...That's for me to decide...my truth is...

I want so much yet give so little. I fear...I reject...I block people out...but hey...that's me...my truth...

Truth hurts they say. That may be so.
Lies hurt too; a double blow.
For in the lie, a truth appears
and that is why the lie ensnares.

To break the snare, truth must be faced
and lie left naked in its place,
so that the truth in Truth submerge
and freedom true, begin to surge.

For Truth makes free the Prophet cries
as on the cross in love he dies.

Will you ever notice me...

9:35 PM

How can I trust someone if that someone has broken my trust,
My heart is empty,
Its cold as ice,
As it reach to break,
It leaks out of water,
That water drips and slips away,
That trust,
That moment,
All within those you have broken,
I may not trust you or your friends but that don’t mean we can’t be friends,
Just friends without that trust,
You have to work your trust with me,
You have to make me understand why should I ever trust you again,
You have to repair that broken trust,
You have to work hard,
That don’t mean be hateful towards me,
Just show me that I can trust you once more

Will you ever notice me...

9:28 PM

As black imbued black, so was rendered the pitch of darkness
That befogged this godforsaken yard of graves -
And too the dank, ‘til now forgotten chapel that
Did little to grace these forlorn grounds.

Yet here stood I, seemingly first to tread this weed-ridden soil
Since times of yore when life had erstwhile blessed this land.
But for being lost in solitude - as does a country wanderer -
Would I not have happened across this morbid landscape.

And though detail rendered barely visible to my naked eye –
For desperately had the moon tried to break through this jet fog –
A sense of something suffused the place.
Was it those tormented spirits desperate for absolution,
Or perhaps the gargoyles teasing me on whether they be of stone or living flesh?

I was drawn to the oak door as it enticingly opened in passage for me.
The organ called from down the nave and through the pale orange of unsteady light
- that which could only be mustered from the few discoloured, moribund candles.
Could I also hear a distant choir of stern voices, as if in effort to scold me?

As I approached, those tarnished pipes came into view.
Standing erect with Gothic pride, they bore down on me with patronising air -
Exaggerated by the disjointed sneering of minor chords,
As if to state that insignificant I had henceforth no grant of solace.

In answer, I steadied my rocking legs and racing mind to wonder of this scenario.
And in doing so, I found myself waking from a cramped dream –
Whence the message dawned: mine had been such a claustrophobic life.

Will you ever notice me...

~~Sunday, November 15, 2009~~

7:19 PM

I just walking to every laugh we ever had.
And shaking in the darkness we never had

You talked to me since I reply while you called my name
I`ll never forget how you forget my name
Cause I`m glab you came.

Everything you told me, were the puzzle of my life.
Cause you`re random but not to me.
You`re talking it not to me,
and I only see you in the random time.
I`m ready for your mission for here and ever
cause you`re everything special to me seem different.

While I`m panicked to see the judge in front of me.
They laughing, shouting me like a mad
But i don`t really care about.
Cause everything don`t have nightmare
Just a sweet dream of you.

Sitting at a chair of you,
dreaming how you see the bright when you wake
Laugh at the skill while how you walk,
Trying to see you while missing you.

but maybe it`s true ,
I can`t live without you

Will you ever notice me...

7:18 PM

Cause you just thinking would be fine again
But all that just you happiness thought
and you`re never though about mine
and ever my happiness is not comfort
since it`s not fine
You`re so wrong ~

Could I ever said it`s brainless, Cause it`s meaningless
Could I never said it`s useless, But it`s not useful;

looking so a deathly hell
and ever thought it`s just a heck.
And I`m just asking you to wear through knife
Cause never thought you want me to fall for your honey
And now you`re asking me to listen cause we did each time before.

So you don`t have to ignore anymore.
Cause we`re not ignorance now.
This like a hell but heck
Don`t wanna stay though in touch;
or if I can see I`m so not over you.

you just somebody from Mars.
And I`m a nobody in earth.
Cause it`s so true,
So Obvious
It seem so perfect in the dark
Cause I`m writing with a pen to a paper in a white to the scream.

Will you ever notice me...

7:16 PM

I`m wearing a red hat
I`m wearing a pink shoe
I had white fingers

I just wanna walk with you
No matter how hard
No matter how difficult

Cause you`re more than a sun to me.
No matter ice age
No matter so hot
Just wanna share an umbrella with you

Oh common common
look at me.
Oh go on go on
Look at you

We gonna be fine if you trusted me.
We gotta be good if you taken me.
We`ll be perfect when we`re in the street.
Cause i mean your brush is not pink enough
your sock`s not long before
You cried has no tears even
You walked had not brave again
your smile would not good again.

You favorite song, I had all memories for so long.

You seem things always just black and white
And no one else had know you more than me.
Cause I swear I love you forever and always.
I wish I won`t leave you while you leaved me
Cause I can`t live without you.

I miss you ... ...

Will you ever notice me...

~~Thursday, November 12, 2009~~

5:15 PM

Will you ever notice me...

~~Sunday, November 1, 2009~~

1:25 AM

The silent
masseurs my sound barrier
Breaking all that I am left inside, insanity
Letting go of the ones I care about
It’s become an art form, graceful
It seems it’s the only thing I’m good for
Holding on till there is nothing left for me to hold
It slips between my fingers, in vain
I’m nothing more then a lonely memory
Left to die in my own fabrication of this life
I feel like my existence is falling to pieces
And I can’t help but deem this is my sentence
Lost to comfort, all kinds of words unexpressed
It’s my own silence that I’ve been condemned
Lost to advice, that’s never followed
It’s my decisions that founded my seclusion
Lost to those who really care
Or maybe more to the ones that really don’t
All these people are locked inside
Until the day I free them from my mind
Lost within the darkness
Lost beneath the light
I’ve run out of road to pursue
I’ve got nowhere left to hide
Step out into the sun Sleep outside beneath the stars
I must burn down this barricade
Before it drowns out all strength
I will succeed and I will get lost
And with any luck, once the two collide
I will blossom in my dream, my dream
Maybe its then when being lost
Will my sense of failure simply just, vanish

Will you ever notice me...